Friday, February 24, 2006
relax relapse
there was one point in life when i felt life was meaningless. waking up in the morning, drag myself to school and just count down till school ends. as stupid as it sounds, it seemed as if i had a routine to follow every single day. i realised one day that education is important and that i had to step up and work much harder to excel. i tried, i tried my hardest to make you proud. i thought this was the right path for me, i knew this was what you wanted me to do.is it too late? or am i just not thinking hard enough of what i want to do?
sometimes i question myself, "what the hell are you doing, rhonda?"
sometimes i feel like i dont even know myself well enough.
if you don't understand what i'm trying to say here in this entry, don't try to understand. if you think i'm just a stupid and confused bitch, don't tell me, i already know it myself. i'm more than just tired of my life right now. it's all about making the right choices in life that will bring you far, isnt it? regretting is the last thing i want to do. i don't even know what are my chances now and what i should do. you tell me.
Blogged @ 1:29 p.m.
