Saturday, May 21, 2005
maybe i'm amazed.
i did some rather deep reflections today. maybe all these while i just refused to accept the fact that everything has changed. it's no longer the "we're a happy family" thing anymore.i guess all these while, i did take you for granted and i do admit that. it just seems like everytime you're there, it gives me feel a sense of anger and hatred in me. but why ? i dont think this can go on forever. i've always treated you like an outsider, someone i dont want to talk to or even get close to. and today, i've realised how childish my behaviour and mentality was that made me hurt someone unconsciously.
it's time i actually grow up. abt a week time, i'll be sixteen. it's not only all abt finally able to watch NC-16 movies or neither is it abt the legal age to do this and that, but it is to me, more abt becoming a year older and becoming more sensible. i seriously feel like a fool for being that way for the past few years but nothing can change the fact that you ruined everything.
but its over huh. i just dont wanna go on rambling abt it anymore. i'll be nicer, but i cant forget.
Blogged @ 8:14 p.m.
